Love is more than Duelality


      I was driving, much too late at night once again. This time, I started to consider if all the things that I currently believed in were false or true in some sort of the sense. I started to nit pick at the situation of love. Could I love more than one woman in my life? Well it is hard to say, but I definitely know that I have loved more than one girl, and it comes down to the fact that I cannot accept but one reality of love.

      Almost considering giving away every piece of love that I already had, I started to wonder if perhaps this was not for the better. Then I also started to wonder one more time if the love of the girls that I love is better off without me. I do not know the answer entirely because my emotions come into play as well, and I could not learn life in a manner that does not suit me. However, being the forgiving and reliably inconsistently hard person, it came to thought that I would not accept this reality of shared emotions and giving away something that I wonder about and love.

      I think that I will find in the situation that my fears and misconceptions are not true, and that I have to make a hard choice in order to keep everything that I need to protect and collect. I do not want this out of spite in any other person’s mind, so I have hidden my love deep inside of me, and will not openly share that which is important to me, but will never lie or misconceive all of these persons and me.